ZVEZDA VAMPIRSKIH DNEVNIKA OBJAVILA POTRESNO PISMO: Mojoj bebi srce više ne kuca! SRCE ĆE VAM PUĆU

Pop kultura - 07.03.2018. 10:15h

Kler Holt (29), glumica poznata po seriji 'Vampirski dnevnici', objavila je fotografiju na društvenoj mreži koju je uslikala pre kiretaže, medicinskog zahvata koji se provodi posle pobačaja.

"Snimila sam ovu sliku pre 10 dana dok sam čekala operaciju jer je moje malo, slatko dete izgubilo otkucaje srca. Poslala sam je vereniku koji je bio u čekaonici kako bi mu pokazala da sam dobro. Ali nisam bila", napisala je Holt

Kaže da se nikad u životu nije osećala slomljeno kao tada i dugo je razmišljala hoće li gubitak deteta podeliti s javnošću.

"Nakon kiretaže sam provela sate na internetu tražeći žene koje su prošle isto što i ja. Bila sam očajna u potrazi za nekim s kim bi mogla da podelim osećanja. Nekog ko će mi reći da su depresija i beznađe normalni, da to nije moja krivica i kako nisam slomljena zauvek", ispričala je glumica.

I took this photo 10 days ago, as I waited for surgery after my sweet little baby lost its heartbeat. I sent it to my fiancé in the waiting room to show him that I was ok. I wasn’t. I’ve never felt more broken in my life. I debated sharing this so soon and I’m still frightened about making such a private struggle public, but I’m doing it anyway because it's important. After my D & C, I spent hours on the internet searching for women who had been through it. I was desperate to find someone, anyone, who could relate to what I was feeling. Someone to tell me that the depression and hopelessness were normal. That it wasn’t my fault. That I wasn’t broken forever. I found a community of women who shared my exact experience. Who were open and vulnerable about miscarriage, something that isn’t often or openly discussed. It breaks my heart to think that losing a baby feels like something we have to keep to ourselves. Why is it any different than the death of a loved one? How is it any less meaningful? Here is what I have learned as I begin to crawl out of the dark hole: support is everything. I could not have survived this without the unconditional love of my partner. Despite his pain, he was my rock and my safety net. I will never know how to thank him. I also found that opening up to people is crucial. As soon as I told my story, almost everyone I spoke to told me theirs - their own, their wife’s, their sister’s. So many people go through it and understand the breadth of pain, yet so few people talk about it. Finally, I want to share a blog post that resonated with every part of me. You can find the link in my bio, @leandramcohen of @manrepeller articulates the emotional rollercoaster with an eloquence that I could never possess. To anyone out there who has been through a miscarriage, I understand you. I share every bit of your pain and you are not alone. Please be kind to yourself and I hope that you will be comfortable sharing your story too.

Објава коју дели Claire Holt (@claireholt) дана 4. Мар 2018. у 3:52 PST

Uspela je da nađe grupu žena koje su doživele identično iskustvo kao ona. Bile su otvorene i slomljene, a o pobačaju su raspravljali otvoreno.

"Srce mi slama osećaj da je gubitak deteta nešto što treba da zadržim za sebe", napomenula je Holt.

Dodala je kako joj je podršak bila najvažnija za 'izlazak iz mračne rupe', a najvažniju ulogu je u tome imao njen verenik Andrej, kojem nikada neće moći dovoljno zahvaliti.